Gratefulness
Gratefulness... sometimes make me sooooo sien. Yes, we (and I) are grateful to some, but arent to others. What should we be grateful? And to whom... when? I dont know... but to me, I am forever grateful to my parents, cause they are the one who raise me until I am today.
But the sad thing is... although I am grateful to them, are they grateful to ME...? I may sound harsh but... all the little things I do, I hope they appreciate it and not just take them for granted, like I am 'born' to do it. That's why it makes me mad... but being the obedient son, I do not make a sound. I swallowed all the scoldings and ungratefulness, and remain an obedient stupid fool. I feel so... pissed!!! >(
Example... a mother is not grateful when his son is lazy, smokes and take drugs outside. She also wont be grateful if he stays at home and plays video game or computer all day long. (in AND out also cannot -_-)
Later the son helps around the house, she says why dont you go out and find work? When he found a work and busy working, she says her son is not grateful, only knows how to work but seldom comes home early. (in AND out of house also wrong -_-)
Isn't life hard? Sigh... I am getting sick of being nice liao >.<